'm trying hard not to express this part of my feelings.... but i guess i failed to.
So here goes nothing...
Sometimes i regret the things i do in my life. I seriously do. I may seem like a happy go lucky girl, so happy, so out-going, carefree, worry-less and so lucky to somehow get what i wanted. But not everything. Just some which somehow actually unexpected...i guess that's what you called God's Gift.
I'm stupid. I'm naive. I don't have much guidance in life and my only guidance are from my mistakes in life... things that never worked out right and i learn everything from my failures. I learn what i can do and what i cannot do. I am constantly looking for what really actually makes me happy in life.
For those i have dated in my past, i still care about them. I may not have much expression to show because we must move on as i'm already gone... i made them cry, i made them sad, i broke their heart, and some after they have broke mine and i break them even harder. Those that never broke my heart, i will only blame myself for being uncertain but whatever it was, you taught me to be a better person...
Sometimes it makes me wanna cry because it's not easy... to look back, to feel what i am feeling right now. Those first moments, that first kiss... and when you smile it was something, like butterflies in my tummy... where is all that now?
